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June 9, 2012

The passing of Dr Lim Hock Siew

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Dear Editor,   

 
I am saddened to read the news of the passing of Dr Lim Hock Siew. Nevertheless, I am glad that the Straits Times carried a decent report of his demise,  “Barisan Socialis leader dies” (ST 6 June), which would at least remind Singaporeans of pioneer political leaders who had fought for Singapore’s independence and argued for a different political vision.
 
As a young lad in the 1960s, I first heard about Dr. Lim from my father who spoke highly of him and his political conviction. My father used to share a stall with Dr Lim’s dad, selling fish at the old Tekka Market. Like most people working in the market, my dad did not have the opportunity to attend school. But he was impressed with Dr Lim’s academic progress and achievement. More than that, my dad respected Dr Lim for his political conviction and his genuine care for the poor, for example, seen in the low-cost medical treatment that he gave to those who consulted him in his clinic at Balestier Road. Needless to say, like many poor, and usually less-educated people, my dad and mum went to his clinic whenever they needed medical care.
 
It is a tragedy that he had to be detained in prison without trial for almost 20 years. One day, I hope, his side of the story will be given a fairer hearing, and a respected academic will write a properly researched book of the contribution of political leaders like him. It speaks volume of his character that in spite of his incarceration, he kept his conviction and stood his grounds; qualities which people who aspire to political office should have. One may disagree with his political ideology, but he will be respected by those who know him as a politician who loved his country and cared deeply for the cause of the poor.
 
Daniel Koh Kah Soon
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‘Dead’ boy sits up in coffin, asks for water and dies again in Brazil

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.. ‘Dead’ boy sits up in coffin, asks for water and dies again in Brazil

By ANI | ANI – Thu, Jun 7, 2012.. .

Melbourne, June 7 (ANI): A two-year-old Brazilian boy, who was declared dead, sat up in his coffin and asked for water before laying back down again lifeless. According to Website ORM, Kelvin Santos stopped breathing during treatment for pneumonia at a hospital in Belem, northern Brazil, News.com.au reported. The boy was declared dead at 7.40pm on Friday and his body was handed over to his family in a plastic bag. The child’s devastated family took him home where grieving relatives held a wake throughout the night as the boy’s body laid in an open coffin. But just an hour before his funeral was to take place on Saturday, the boy apparently sat up in his coffin and said asked his father for water. “Daddy, can I have some water,” the child said. “Everybody started to scream, we couldn’t believe our eyes. Then we thought a miracle had taken place and our boy had come back to life,” the boy’s father, Antonio Santos said. “Then Kelvin just laid back down, the way he was. We couldn’t wake him. He was dead again….. Mr Santos rushed his son back to the Aberlardo Santos hospital in Belem,where the doctors reexamined the boy and confirmed that he had no signs of life. “They assured me that he really was dead and gave me no explanation for what we had just seen and heard,” Santos said. The boy’s family decided to delay the funeral for an hour hoping that he would wake up again, but ended up burying him at 5 pm the same day in a local cemetery. Santos, who is convinced that his son was victim of medical malpractice, has now registered a complaint with the police who have launched an investigation. “Fifteen minutes after rushing him away for resuscitation, they came and told me he was dead and handed me his body. Perhaps they didn’t examine him properly. Dead people don’t just wake up and talk. I’m determined to find out the truth,” Santos said. (ANI) ..

May 29, 2012

再见妈妈 Good Bye ,Mom..

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妈妈再见

15-April 2011

Hi everybody, i would like to say a few words to remember my mother.

Koh Ai Tee, my mom was a kind hearted and brave lady. She would love me and my father, always putting ahead our needs over hers. She is selfless to the point where she’ll rather suffer, be insulted or misunderstood for her good intentions.
She has a brave heart. I remember the story told by my dad about this one time when they were on holiday in Sweden. A big-sized American man threatened dad and mocked him thinking he was a Japanese soldier. Small sized as she was, mom rushed to my dad’s defiance and used her head to butt the fellow’s chest. My father will always recount that story as an example of how mom would put everybody’s need ahead of herself.

My mother is a faithful Christian. For her physically weak body, she makes up by having a tough and strong mentality. On top of that, she places so much faith and hope in God. Through the course of the past year, mother underwent so much injections, chemotherapy, radiology and different drug change. Strong as she was, her body is still very human, and a physical body is so very limited in this temporal world.

Mother often wondered what lesson is God trying to teach her? Could it be she hasn’t been a good witness to her faith? At her darkest moment, i remember seeing her cry out “My God has disappeared, my God has disappeared.” That was very heartbreaking for dad and I. And yet after a while, mom would have willed herself and absolutely convinced herself that God is in control. Jesus loves her. And then we would hum the children song. “Jesus loves all the children, all the children in the world….” A simple children hymn, which is my mom, always childlike, always faithful. When she was slipping in and out of consciousness, father whispered to her “Do you know i love you a lot, a lot?” She said “You don’t even have to say it, I already know, but love God first then me and Wei.” She said that during her most difficult moments. I often wonder where she gets her faith from. Her anguish and pain is very real, but friends, so is her faith. Right to the end.

I am thankful that God allowed us enough time to say our goodbyes, twice in fact. When she was last warded, and doctors told us we only have a few weeks left. Since then, i have had heart-to-heart conversations with mom. This was something hard to do in an Asian culture. Where love is not outwardly expressed. Yet it is very important to say the words that matter. So I had an idea, to write letters to mom in a journal, she would write me back. To and fro, our correspondence nearly filled an entire book.

All through my adult life, i never really allowed my parents to fully participate in my search for my identity, and purpose in life. A struggle with my faith is also something very personal and i would wrestle my own demons and deliberately exclude my parents from the process. How i grow in the Lord is also a different experience as what my mom and dad went through. Although so, they’ve always taken little bits and pieces of time to show me how God has been gracious and good to our family since young. Mother said she has been praying for me even I was born. She prayed for her future husband, and God sent her my dad.

I have been placed in such a loving family who gives me the space to grow, to make my own mistakes and learn from them. God says “I am love.” But what does that mean for us? And then i look at Dad and Mom’s unfailing care and love for each other and i am convinced there is no better place for me to learn that than here, with Dad and Mom.

Mom would encourage me to talk to God about every little thing. She said that she always prayed for my future wife. And so, time will tell how that turns out.

I am thankful that i get to promise my mother that i will never let go of my faith, though we all have our own disillusions with Christianity and in God every once so often, i assured her that i will always remember my roots. Brothers, sisters and friends, people that i love, and who love me back, i am also counting on you to hold me to that promise.

I am thankful that i get to hug my mother, kiss my mother, hold her hands and tell her that i love her and even though she said not to be sad and to miss her, Dad and I will miss her very much.

God is good, even through our darkest moments; he has sent countless friends to support us. For food, for companionship, for heart-to-heart conversations. We have never been in want. You know individually who you are. My father and I are very thankful. Perhaps a reminder that God does not only exist in church, along the pews or over communion. Our God is an infinite God who is in the big things right down to the tiniest details. Your care and concern is one of those. God is also evident in my mom’s life. Her selflessness, love and gentle heart. There is still good in this world, it is with a heavy heart to say that my father and I have lost one of those who are good, and is beautiful today.

Thank you all for listening.

 

莫泽威分享

 

 

再见,妈妈。。

 

嗨,大家好,我想讲几句话,记念我的母亲。( 15/4/2011)

许爱治,是我的妈妈。她是一个善良和勇敢的妈妈。她爱我和我的父亲,她始终都满足供应我们的需要。她是无私的,她宁愿受苦,被侮辱或被人误解了她的好意。


她有一颗勇敢善良的心。我记得爸爸告诉我一个故事,当他们在瑞典度假时,一个高大的美国男子威胁着父亲,并嘲笑他,认为他是一个二战战败日本兵的后代。。瘦小的妈妈,感觉到我爸被蔑视,用她的头对准那家伙的胸部撞去。。我的父亲经常总是会述说这个故事,说妈妈如何把我们的需要胜过于她自己的需要。。

我的母亲是一位虔诚的基督徒。她的身体虽然虚弱瘦小,但是她面对艰难的事时,有着强大的心态和意志力。最重要的是,她把自己的信仰和对上帝的盼望,通过对过去一年的过程中,都充份的表现 出来。。母亲病时经历了这么多的注射,化疗,放射和对着不同的药物影响变化,她的身体已是受不了。。。但因为她凭着是强大的意志,那是人性化和一个肉体在这个时空世界是非常有限的。。她最后差点崩溃!

爸对我说,母亲经常在想,是上帝试图对她有什么教训?道是她一直没有一个很好的见证和信心不够?在她最黑暗的时刻,我记得我看到她哭了,“ 我的上帝已经消失,已经消失了,我的上帝你在哪里?。。”这是很心痛的一段时刻,爸爸和妈妈会任性绝对相信自己是在神控制中。。因为耶稣爱她。然后我们会一起哼唱妈喜欢的儿歌: 耶稣爱世界上所有的孩子,所有的孩子……”这是一首简单的儿童赞美歌。。这就是我的妈妈。她总是很孩子气,她总是很忠实。。当她的意识和体力开始滑落时,父亲低声对她的        “你知道我爱你很多,很多吗?”她说:“你不说出来,我已经知道,但要爱上帝,然后才爱我和阿威。。”这是在她最困难的时刻所说的话。。我常想,在那里她得到了她信仰的保证。她的痛苦是非常真实的,但是,朋友们,这是她坚持的信仰。。一直到她生命的结束。。。

我感谢上帝让我们有足够的时间向妈妈说再见,在她最后一次入院时,医生告诉我们,妈妈只有几个星期的生命了。。从那时起,我和妈妈开始心以心的交谈。。这是亚洲文化的东西很难做到的。然而在这个时候如果我爱妈妈而又不能向妈妈表示的话。。再不说的话,是永远再也没机会了。。时间是非常紧急的。所以我有一个想法,写日记,用册子,和笔写信给妈妈,她也写回信给我。。来来回回,我们的信件几乎占满了整本书。。

在所有通过我生命成长的岁月过程中,我从来没有真正应许让我的父母充分参与我的生活,和让他们知道我倒底在做些什么,或知道我对生命的目的和意义何在。。我对信仰的斗争也是很个人的东西,我把自己的人生当为是一个与恶魔搏斗的过程,我刻意地排除我的父母。。我如何在主的成长也是我爸爸和妈妈经历了不同的人生经验所影响。虽然如此,他们一直采取忍耐,低调,和让时间来证明给我看,看神怎样以爱和恩典建立我们的家庭。。母亲说,她一直为我祈祷,即使我出生那个时刻,她已开始为我祷告。。她也说她那个时候一直祈祷为着她未来的丈夫。。而上帝后来把她送给了我的爸爸。。

我其实已被上帝放置在这样一个充满爱的家庭,他们给我的成长空间,使我看到自己的错误,并从他们身上学到许多的事物。。上帝说“我就是爱。”但是,那是什么意思?是对我们吗?然而我看着爸爸和妈妈始终如一的互相关怀和对彼此的爱,我相信我没有更好的地方可以学习得到,只在这里,在爸爸和妈妈的身上。。。

妈妈常常鼓励我谈论神如何在我身上所行的每一件小事。她说,她总是对我未来的妻子祈祷。等等,时间会告诉我神将来如何在我人生道路上去成就祂对我的旨意。。

我很感激上帝,因为我答应我的母亲,我永远不会放弃我的信仰,虽然我们自己有时候对基督教和上帝存有的幻灭的思想,但我向妈妈保证,我会永远记得我们的根,我们是建立在上帝爱的基础上。。还有我亲爱的弟兄们,姐妹和朋友们,我所爱的人,以及爱我的人,我还指望请你们抓我一把,帮我守住这一个承诺。。

我很感激上帝,我得到了母亲的拥抱,亲吻妈妈,握住她的手,告诉她我爱她,即使她对我说,不要难过和想念她,但是爸爸和我会非常想念她的。。。

上帝是好的,甚至通过我们最黑暗的时刻,他已派出无数的朋友来支持我们。不断供应食物,心对心的陪伴着我们谈话。这是我们从来没有想得到 的。你们心里清楚知道我在讲的“你”是谁。。我父亲和我心里都非常感激你们。这也是提醒我们,神不只是存在教堂里,在座位或高高在上的崇拜里。。而是,我们的神是无限的上帝,祂无所不在,从大的事情到最微小的细节。。您们的关心和照顾就是其中之一。上帝在我妈的生活例子中也很明显,她对生活的热爱,无私的爱和温柔的心。在这个世界上虽然仍然有好多好多美好的事物,但是我以一个很沉重的心情对你们说,今天父亲和我已经失去了一个最好的和最美丽妈妈的过去。

谢谢你们耐心的听。

 

莫泽威。  粗糙翻译:莫泰驹2012年六月一日

 

 

 

 

2012年守岁分享

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2012 年 守岁 分享

。。我们爱,因为上帝先爱我们。。

当我回头看看,2009年到今年下半年来,我实在感到惊讶,我不晓得我到底如何有力量走过来的?每天替爱爱打针,每个星期陪爱爱到医院化疗,乘坐救伤车从这个医院到另一间医院去电疗。。奔波于三个不同的医院,治疗三个不同的病。。。老实说,到现在我还是无法接受这个事实。

新的一年带来了新的希望,很多感谢神恩典的事。但是我无法真正感受到这欢乐的气氛,因为我经历人生最痛苦的时刻。亲爱的亲人都离开了人间,患病,消沉,忧郁还是无法离开我。。有时心悲从中来,说,这些快乐不属于我的。。但是神答应,祂的慈爱和信实不会离开个我们。。(希13;5)。不管前面道路如何,不管以往怎么样,祂对我们的计划确实是不变的!
不管是上帝的旨意如何,我决定融合自己的心意而进入上帝的旨意当中。

看过一本书这么写:自怜是信任上帝的大敌,是致命伤。但是当你的勇气从心灵的窗口飞了出去的时候,并且周遭的世界突然变得黑暗阴险时,自怜已变成了一个无法避免的自然反应。如果我拼命压制这个反应,我会让自己心力憔碎。经历告诉我,没有对付自怜的有效方法。我当然可以装作更属灵,伪装着情绪,进入教堂,然而这样子的做法是否认了自己的人性,根本行不通。因为我不是属灵的机器人,而是有血有肉,而且有感性的人。。所以一些弟兄姐妹可能碰过我在他们面前大掉男人的眼泪。失礼!失礼。。虽然说是堂堂男儿眼泪不轻弹。。

然而,我确实知道,自怜会残害我,会毁掉我对上帝的信心,情绪化的时候,我恳求上帝赐恩,限制我自怜的时间,若是有需要,我会好好偷偷的哭一场,接下去我会专注生命中还是有美好的事物,好像那些来探访我的人,我会听到更多的事情,还有那些我的伙伴们。

我要努力不容许自己所发生的一切,心里产生更多的自怜,每天早晨,一点点,掉几滴泪也就够了。。我希望能够做到.

感谢上帝对我们的爱,感谢上帝的恩典,感谢上帝给我们盼望,感谢上帝赐生命中玫瑰有刺,感谢上帝赐生命中有春夏秋冬,感谢上帝祷告不应允,感谢上帝赐下平安喜乐。。感谢上帝赐予弟兄姐妹的爱心 . . 。。
感谢祂直到永永远远,天荒地老。。让我们毫不留情的信任上帝,让我们拒绝以完美的辩才代替自己个人对上帝的委身。。荣耀归于阿爸父神 .

January 20, 2012

我们地铁到底出了什么事?

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地铁慢了,等候时间长长了,早出门时间提早了,回家时间延迟了,人潮多了,地铁频频出问题,连讯号路线也出问题…我们地铁到底出了什么事?來新加坡的福州朋友说:啊?新加坡也会这样啊?我脸上屯时红了起来。…借镜外国地铁出现的问题,理当想到有25年的地铁,得做一趟全面保养和检查。避免出现严重问题而尬…现在出了问题,应该是改进服务的时候了…

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December 26, 2011

令人无奈的事情

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 令人无可奈的事

在报章读到74岁老妇动了心脏手术之几天后逝世的新闻,心中已感到不平衡,再读下去,赫然发现,主刀和受训医生竟然在动完手术之后立即辞职和分别不再当实习医生。我心里感到很挣扎,纳闷和无限感慨。。想不久前,太太卵巢癌去世之前在医院发生的事又是一幕一幕的呈现在脑海里。。有一次周末在医院守着她时,看到太太睡着了,就快速的去洗手间一趟。。没想到才不一下子,回来的时候,看到太太床上的白布已染上大片红色血迹,还有满地的一堆血迹。。清洁工人快速地正要清理。。我既刻阻止他,要问明原因,但是他们只是说医生刚才在抽血。我问护士,那一位医生在太太睡时抽血,可以的吗?但他们却说不出是哪一位实习医生在太太睡觉时抽她的血。。而且是差错的抽血。可以这样子的吗?因为护士长(太太哥哥的教友。。)发现针管 筒插错!我既气愤又无奈。过后向化疗医生反映,她说,周末见习医生比较多。。我也不解,刚刚同一天才抽了数次血,在短短时间内又再抽?其回答是,不同医生,不同的要求!我的天啊!太太每次抽血都痛哭的声音声(因为她已近乎瘦得皮包骨。),喊叫我的声音,直到到现在还不绝于耳,挥之不去。
。。

大粒的药丸原本是应该放在水杯里待溶解才喝的,但没人告知,可怜的她好不容易才吞了下去,那时她吞咽已困难。。天啊!

那时太太的脚已肿得像大象一般,奄奄一息,插管围绕,病床墙头明挂着不能下床走动!但见习医生却要她下床做运动。。

太太在化疗的期间,换了好多次化疗药,我不是医生,所以医生问我要不要换这种药或者想要那一种药,我全然不敢堪自决定。

最后换了价钱不菲的口服药,终导致鼻子流血,口吐血痰。。即刻停止服用。
化疗医生来探病房时,太太那时还清醒,但眼睛是已看不到。听到医生高跟皮鞋的脚步声音,她马上喊:“安静!” 年轻的化疗女医生对我说:“ 惨了。。你太太一定骂我,因为我给她的药太强了。。”

几天后,太太肾功能衰败,不治逝世。。骨灰呈深黄色,据说是药太强烈。

在医院的其中一些日子,由于扩散到肺,有5天需要每一天去另一间医院电疗胸部,开始时由救伤车载送,躺在担架上,太太辛苦得总是吐个不停,我要求用载人的车,回应说,载人的车没有氧气设备,不能。最后还是一位印籍护士把氧气筒带来用载人的车辆护送,才松了口气。。

以上点点滴滴,不是想追究些什么责任问题,也不是针对些什么,医生们有苦衷是我们无法了解的,我们知道。太太现在已过世了,再追究也是没用,因为在医院也是太多好人好事,一些医生,护士,在太太行最后的人生旅程时,都给了她很大的爱心。。我只是想到太太对护士长所说的,好的事要赞扬,不好的也是要提出改进。。

如果医院方面有任何在协调或者伸缩性上需要改进的地方,不时捡讨改进,是为重要啊!千万不能等闲视之,行政细节上的差错,是人命关天的啊!

November 27, 2011

勿洛蓄水池寻短见溺水案说起

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勿洛蓄水池寻短见溺水案说起
5 November 2011, 16:36

早晨和朋友在勿洛蓄水池打太极,遇到新明日报记者,却惊悉又发生溺水命案。不知道是寻短见仰或是意外?倘若是前者的话,应该是本年度第六起勿洛蓄水池投水寻短见溺水案。。和记者们短暂的访谈,我们的回应不外是安全考量,或如何再防止这些事件再发生?为什么那末多人喜欢在此蓄水池寻短见?等等的问题。。。现在想起来都是多余的。一个人想自寻短见想不开的话,任由你用什么方法都好,没特有原因可阻止。

社会,人间若有温情,关怀的话,也许还是有个媛冲区的。自寻短见,不能解决问题,往往都有自身想不开,打不开的结。疾病,照顾家中病人,感情问题,赌博,经济问题,孤单,失去依靠,失业。。等等问题。我现在在想,不丹王国的快乐指数国家,是否也有这个问题?有啦,是人就一定有这些问题。

我太太逝世将近六个月了,想起那段日子,孤单无助,四面楚歌。每星期陪她去医院治疗几次,进出医院,每天还得亲自为她注射散血针,换氧气筒,换输管瓶,等等。。三种病,三个不同的医院。。一年又六个月,一切都沥沥在目。。我们努力奋斗,她还是痛苦的走了。老实说,接受事实地确不容易的。。我不是在这里自可怜,只是说到了最后,自己还是要勇敢站起来。。朋友不可能一辈子听你说了又说的辛酸的故事。。
去台湾“逃避现实”的时候,有一天凌晨5点,接收到一个旧同事打来电话,哭泣的说:“。。xx 现在突然死了。。心脏病。怎么办?” 接下来,他每次不时打电话来,很多同事也陆续打电话来说年轻的他要寻短见,不要管孩子了。叫我即刻回来帮忙。。怎么办?我现在的情绪都自身难保。。我还在努力的要从悲痛破碎心灵走出来。。很多次想关上手机,但想起自己的处境,很了解他的痛苦。我硬着头皮,压住自己还在悲痛的心情,不断接听他的来电,有时还是在半更三夜。。我要求他站起来,并分享我的经历。。介绍他去谱导。现在听同事说他已开始接受事实了。。

最后,我要表白一点,是的,社会虽然冷酷无情,但让我们发光发热,朋友遇难需要你宁听他倾诉时,不要拒人于千里之外,耐心的听,耐心的回应,随时负起谱导的任务,也许你就救了一条人命。。

June 14, 2011

若是重点放错

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若是重点放错

若是一个国家要是不把重心放在国民上,却放在少数派系身上,会要国不成国。要是把一个国家各阶层间互相敌对,这个国家相信是不会真正兴旺的。。要是一个党,它存在的目的,只是让一小部份的人得到利益;不问得利益的少数人是谁,我认为国家也不可能好起来的。国家的一切政策若只是为了维护特权阶级的特权,或者只是为了伸张一些自以为被践踏的人的要求,这个相信也是好不起来的。好的政府会照顾到全体国民的利益。
好比一个家庭若重点一味看中物质,会要家不成家。一个家要用金钱的收入来做衡量事物的标准,讲究排场和享受,这个家会出问题吗?希伯来的哲人说过:“吃素菜,彼此相爱;强如吃肥牛,彼此相恨。”家庭要是忘记了家之所以为家要靠爱心,而不是靠物质,若是,这个家会要崩溃。

不论是慈善或者教会团体,要是不把重心点放在服事人上面,各人只顾自己,那么也是溃不成军。常有人因为没有得到名位,或者事情发展不如己意,在事奉上冷淡退却,都是要把自己放在第一位的结果。受损的是国家或团体。
我们称幸有自我更新,不断改进的政府。而我们的各政府部们更加要带着服务广大人民的精神服务人民。

November 14, 2009

这是好还是坏?

Filed under: Uncategorized — hkboh @ 2:46 pm

穿着校服,坐在侯车亭众目睽睽之下你侬我侬,你拥我抱。这两位学生的家长若是看到了不知有何感受?在所谓开放的大前提下,学生已没有我们应由的传统价值观念。也许是在比较开放的西方国家里,这根本用不着怎么大惊小怪。

但是就是传统的东方文化已在进步社会里完全的淡化,甚至完全的失去。这是好?Image008互相拥抱=1Image009抱=2Image010抱=3Image007=抱=4

想自杀?

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11月13日,中午12.30分。我在丹那美那等候地铁,准备前往樟宜机场时,却看到这令人捏把冷汗的一幕。
这位仁兄在轨道黄线之外排回,他走了进来又走出黄线。于是我开始注意他的举动,深怕万一他真的想不开,跳了下去。。那怎办?后来看他那不稍一顾,傲慢的样子,对警告黄线视若无睹,故意引起注意。老兄啊,要英雄也不是如此啊!Image031想自杀?

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